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Happy Birthday…To Me!

Today is my birthday.  This morning around 8:45, with no fanfare or fuss, I completed my 54th trip around the sun and started my 55th.  It doesn’t bother me to be 54 years old now or to let you know how old I am; attaining this age is a privilege that many people do not get to enjoy.

Celebrating this birthday, however, has been a struggle for me.  Celebration of birthdays has never been a huge thing for me, but they are special days and I’m trying to learn how to celebrate them more effectively.  I do this not only for my own birthday but also for the birthdays of people I love.  I want them to know that I love them and am so enriched by their lives, but I don’t often know how to show it in meaningful ways, so I’m trying to learn that skill.  (Thankfully, it’s never too late to learn something new!)

My desire to celebrate is complicated by the fact that I am currently estranged from several people who are the most dear to me.  My heart aches, and leading up to this day, I only felt dread at trying to manufacture some sort of celebratory spirit.  Celebration just doesn’t feel complete without them here.

However, the Lord gave me a re-direction on that point this morning.  Just like when I celebrate my spiritual birthday, today isn’t about me and what I’ve done – it’s about what He has done.

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you. (Psalms 139:13-18)

Aren’t those verses amazing?  When I meditate on them, I just become increasingly in awe that the God of the universe would put so much love and care into me and my life.  Who am I that He would do such a thing?  And yet it’s true.

So today, I’m celebrating!  I’m thanking Him for this life and for the growth opportunities He gives me.  I’m thanking Him for loving me so much.  I’m thanking Him that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that I am His handiwork (Ephesians 2:10).  He is good to me.

A Post About Friends :)

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.  Proverbs 17:17

Do you have friends?  I mean REAL friends – the ones who stick by you through thick and thin.  The ones who know all your faults but love you anyway.  The ones who know all your secrets and will never tell a soul.  I am blessed to have several friends who meet that description.

Recently I took a break from a really crazy period of life and went on a weekend getaway with three of my very most dear friends, Valerie, Stephanie and Jenny.  We have been friends for 40 years or more.  Valerie and Jenny still live in Georgia where we all grew up, but life has taken Stephanie to California and me to Kentucky.  In spite of the distance, when we get together it’s like we were never apart from each other.

So, as I was saying, we took a break and made a long weekend getaway to Savannah, Georgia.  I had been through Savannah before, but I had never stopped and explored the city before that weekend.  It was lovely.  We had a great time on Saturday doing a hop-on, hop-off tour through the city and learning about its incredible history.  We did some shopping on River Street.  We ate a fantastic Italian dinner at Bella Napoli and finished up with ice cream at Leopold’s.

On Sunday, we went to Tybee Island.  The beach is my happy place, and I was glad that the others wanted to go there also.  Even though it was October, the weather was cooperative enough for us to swim and wade in the water.  We then had a wonderful mid-afternoon lunch on Tybee.  When we got back to our hotel, we spent the afternoon at the pool.  That evening we had a great seafood dinner before retiring to the hotel to spend a precious last little bit of time together before I had to leave early on Monday.  (It’s a 10 hour drive from my home in Lexington to Savannah.)

The best part of the weekend was just being with people who really “get” me.  We laughed and cried with each other and shared intimate parts of ourselves.  We talked about dreams and plans that we have, and dreams and plans that have fallen apart.  We encouraged each other and were encouraged by each other.  It was a great time of lifting of spirits.  I have found that their kind of friendship is a rare commodity in this world.

Do you know who else really gets me?  Like, better than anybody else?  Jesus does.  Just look at the opening verses of Psalm 139:

 You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

I added emphasis to the word “know” to illustrate all the ways that the Lord knows me and knows you.  Isn’t it mind-boggling to think that He knows literally everything about us?  And with this knowledge of us — all of our proclivities and passions, our weaknesses and our strengths, our hopes and our dreams — He loves us more deeply than we can ever fathom.  WOW.   That just blows me away to think that the God of the universe would even want to know me that well.

I pray that you have friends who are as loved and treasured as my friends are to me.  More importantly, I pray that you have the Friend Who will never leave you nor forsake you.  Please comment below or message me if you would like to know Him more.

 

And now for a quick update.  I haven’t written as much lately because I have been SUPER busy.  The pace at my regular job really increases during the last quarter of each year.  In addition, I’ve picked up a second job, one that will just be seasonal before life returns to normal, ha ha.  The main reason I haven’t written, though, is that I’m going through a lot of stuff right now on spiritual and emotional levels.  The Lord is doing some deeper work in me, for which I’m grateful.  I will write about it once I’m on the other side of this, but right now any thoughts that I have would just be half-baked.  I appreciate your patience with me, though, and if you’re so inclined, I would appreciate your prayer that the Lord will complete this work at the deepest levels He wants to take me to in it.  Thank you, and blessings to all!